deer.

I just shared a really magical moment with Tara, on our way home tonight. Coincidentally the last night I'll be seeing her for awhile.

As I was pulling up to the "Lodge", we were met in the middle of the road by a pack of deer. I mean the whole family! Mom and all 5 of the children it seemed like.

The last little guy was a little hesitant to cross the driveway, so I turned off my lights and after a few moments of reflection, he gingerly stepped onto the driveway, then hastily made his way down the hill, into the woods somewhere.

"Magical" we breathed.

Tara, I'm glad we got to share that precious moment together. I'll miss you.

There's so much pain in the world.
Wars and political corruption, lack of trust and broken hearts make up our history here.
Nihilistic hearts cry out to nothing, care for nothing, love nothing.
Post-modern views of no absolutes govern our thoughts.
Noise, so much noise.

Where are you God?

As I sit here and contemplate over the semester coming to a close, I realize that I am a few steps closer to finishing this chapter in my life and beginning another. But what do you want from me? How can I contribute?

Where are you God?


"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go."

- Joshua 1:9

"I never left" He said.

venus and mars

It's saturday night and I'm studying.
lame.

Today was spent with friends, lot's of laughing and a venus and mars session that made me think.
What did I think about you ask? Well everything really, but I'll simplify it for you.

1. Even though most of my friends are married or engaged, a lot of us aren't and that's okay.

2. This generation is not as mature as previous ones because of the "silver spoon" society we live in today.

3. I really miss being in a relationship.

4. I'm kinda glad I'm not in a relationship.

5. I'm realizing more and more how young I am. I've got dreams, I've got goals. I'd like to achieve them.

6. Maybe I'd like to achieve them with a special someone though?

7. By the time my mom was my age, I was already born. A year an a half later, my sister entered the world. YIKES!

8. More college aged girls are starting to date guys younger than them. 5 up and five down apparently.

9. Where does God fit in all of this? I don't believe that there is only ONE person in the entire world that is meant for me.

10. I don't have a tenth thought. I've just wasted 2.5 seconds of your time. Sorry.

I guess I have a lot to think about. I am glad though that I have friends who are so willing to be vulnerable and candid in our discussions about the opposite sex. I think that if I ever have children, I will tell them about my experiences with venus and mars. I'll be truthful with them about everything I've learned, and encourage them to seek the Lord's guidance in these matters.

Somehow I think I want to be more intentional about my relationships. I want to cherish them all and not worry about whether or not I'll find my soulmate one day. I'll worry about doing His work and let Him worry about this.

Now if only I could let go and let Him...

oh the things we do, with the people we love...

Thanksgiving break was so much fun.
Why, you ask?
The food, seeing my family, sleeping in, AND...
Well because when my darling sister and I get together, who knows what's bound to happen.